Die?

9:39PM

It's dark here. I like dark. I like closing my eyes and seeing the dark. It reminds me of her. She, in all her beauty, walking through the darkness to me. To make me belong. To make me believe. To make me feel. I haven't really felt anything for so long, but she made me remember how it is to feel. Every time she looks at me I can feel the way how my loneliness is fading. How it goes and never comes back.

I like to watch her while she's sleeping. So peaceful. So tender. So unprotected. It's funny, really it is, funny to say words like that about a vampire. But she's more. She's the reason of my un-life. The only thing, that make me want to fight.

I don't think I'm in love with her. But I do love her. If my heart would beat, that it would beat only for her. For the smiles she makes towards me, for the looks she gives me, for the melodies she hums. For the weakest thing in her. For the magic she makes me feel.

She's mine. And I won't let anyone take her from me. She is mine. And she always will be mine. I swear to the devil that I will torture, kill and dust every damn being that will come close to something that's mine.

And she is mine. My un-life, my muse, my sire...

My Drusilla...

Current mood: awake